MY Fair Lady. Papu's girl. all grown- up.

I remember the first time i saw you, i told myself, you are Our baby. I didn't believe the "lukso ng dugo" works but there was a magic when i saw you, now I'm a believer.

i remember the day you were born, your lolo won bingo wherein he won almost a hundred thousand and believed that you were his lucky charm.

I remember the time your father told me your name and i wasn't thrilled cause i expected it already.

I remember when you were 5 months, i presented to took care of you and your parents never hired a nanny for you.

I remember i needed to sing you a lullaby for you to fall asleep even if my throats hurts, and my voice sucks.

I remember the day when i was devastated and crying over a girl, you were hugging me and swept my tears. i wondered if you knew what i was going through.

I remember when i need to take advantage of the time you were asleep to sweep the floor and cook our food.

I remember the time you were crying and i need to make a milk for you but i was frying, i did both things spontaneously and ended up crying too.

I remember the first time you had a fever, it was after a day you went to Dagupan, i was really mad at your parents cause you never had fever with me.

I remember when i went out with my friends, and i left you with your lolo, I was really thinking about you all the time that i went home just to check you. 

I remember when i went to look for a job, because i was really tired of our routine activities, I missed it and wished that we can be together again. 

I remember the first birthday of yours, when i insisted we will butcher a pig for you, I'm so glad your parents listened. You were the first baby anyway, why not be luxurious.

I remember your first birthday, I was the one very busy preparing and doing the games. It was exhausting. i also payed for your balloons.

I remember again, it was your first birthday, i was the one opening gifts with you. 

I remember the first time you said "papu", i was very delighted.

I remember when you were first confined in the hospital, it was the time when i went back to school and again blaming your parents they aren't taking care of you. shame on me, but hypocrisy is ugly. 

I remember your second birthday, i was the one holding you to blow the candle, and again, did the parlor games.

I remember when i first introduced you to your tita hazel, you called me Papu, and she was surprised cause i haven't told her about you. she might thought you were my own child.

I remember when YANYAN was born, I am excited to hold your sister but they were all busy with her and i don't want you to get jealous so i held you up instead of her.

I remember the gift you always ask me, a make-up kit, and it always brings the smile on your face. 

I remember when your about to go to school, I bought you your first lunch box. 

I remember the first day of you going to school, i was with you. I even coached you how to introduce your name in front of the class, you were very shy, but when you started speaking, I was really very proud.

I Remember your first exam, i was the one tutored you and you almost got perfect.

i remember watching you on your first cheerdance competition and it made me cry.

I remember watching you receiving your second honor award, i was proud as much as your dad. 

I remember when i teased you i will be leaving you and i'll get marry, you were crying like hell.

I remember when your mom left, you were crying, i carried you and promised you not to go abroad, then you stopped. 

I remember when i always raised my voice, you always follow what i say.

Now your almost a grown-up. and as much as i hate to see it, yeah, you are now, a lady. I yell at you when you put your make up on but it reflects on me cause i was the one who gave you that thing. Maybe I'm just afraid, that you grow-up so soon that you will forget about me.

Now, you might. cause your leaving the house. i am the happiest that you have your new house.. It is a turning point to your parent's lives, as they grow-up, too. but i am scared to death, I am scared no one will watch over you as often as we used to be. No one will remind you to brush your teeth and take a shower cause your lola forgets, sometimes.I am scared, because I will miss you :( seriously. I was used of waking up and forcing you to eat your breakfast. Checking your journal and daily activities. bathing you even if your hot and your lola will get angry. Yelling at you when you don't listen. Yes, we will still see each other but not as everyday. :( I am sad thinking about leaving me.  

I loved you so much that i don't want you to go. But baby, it's a realization, we can't be together forever. I promise i will visit you everyday as i can. Thank You for making me who am i today. :)))