ANXIETY to the severe level???

the onset of my Anxiety started 1st day of this month. they said "just relax and wait for the result, you've done your best, and you'll make it".

they don't know, it had just added on the level of my anxiety. Everyone were very confident that i can pass my recent concluded exam, but not myself. Although i believe that i had study hard, being overconfident is not the key. i don't know if i shade the boxes well. i almost even pricked one of my test papers because of how i sharpened my pencil.. everyone expects me to pass that's why i am so nervous because what if God wont give me this, this time. nakakahiya if i fail. i hate feeling this. AMBIVALENCE. feelings of two opposing thoughts. one says, "hey be positive, you'll pass", and the other says "feeling ka masyado". how can i be positive if one side of me is very pessimistic. i dont wanna be hypocrite, ofcourse i'm thinking to pass everytime i had the chance of thinking bout the result. was that bad? no. was that assurance? neither. but that helps me to lessen my anxiety. .

Many speculations on when the result will be released. i dont even know when, but they said's it's on the last week of July or the First week of August. It's 2-3 weeks from now. i know i share the same feelings to those who take the June board, but i knew someone who never been bothered about the result of the exam, maybe he is confident enough, or maybe using a very common DEFENSE MECHANISM, suppression. What does i mean by exampling him? that every test taker had different ways on how to cope with their anxiety. we may have the same feelings but we had different ways to attack or accept it. i remembered my psyche teacher. she said there are ways on how to lessen the level of anxiety. Have you guess mine? yes.. this one.. Journal writing.

hoooo... keep praying for me guys.. please.