1 AM THOUGHTS

So yeah I'm at work. Without internet on my desktop so im doing the whole blogging thing here in my smartphone. It's funny cause the first time I got my first smart phone, i actually looked for "blogspot" application. That was 2012 and blogspot app still don't exist. So last month i tried to search for it then tarrran.. So for the bloggers out there with blogspot, you can actually download the app. My apologies for any mistyped words because i usually don't re-read my post. I don't correct grammar so it will be as human as i intend it to be (you know, that thing that all men err). 

My thoughts at 1 am? Well, besides stalking twitter of the Aldub phenomenon (yeah, i got the aldub fever) and reading about them on google, I just actually finished watching Cheaper by the dozen (for the nth time) and still sobbed like it was the first time i've seen it. For those who doesn't know what this movie is, please try to watch it. It's very hilarious and touching. It's a movie of a couple with 12 kids, that through chaos, they still function as a whole. It was very moving how Tom Baker (a character portrayed by Steve Martin) sacrificed his dream to become the headcoach of a football team to prioritize his 12 children. SACRIFICE. Believe it or not, in my life i have sacrificed a lot. For my family, my love, and for myself. That soon, if i will have my own children, it would be easier to prioritize them, whatever it takes, or sacrificing my life. This led me to my another 1 am thought. The family of my own.

I read one article about a married woman 's rant about people asking her why she is still childless for her age. That is when i realize that their choice (to conceive or not to conceive ) as a couple are none of our business. People tend to ask too many questions that a part of it is really pressuring them. We become insensitive to those people who maybe trying so hard to conceive. We tend to become intruders of their own privacy.

For a record, those who were asking us if we want to have a child, ofcourse we do. 

My wife and I were married for two years now. Life here abroad wasn't that easy. You have to consider all other aspects. First and foremost, to raise a child is not something you grow up with. It takes emotional stability and preparedness.  We thought, that time, that we are not yet ready to have a child. The past two years you may have not just noted but we are having a little financial crisis so it was not really the best time for us. Yet, we realize that NO ONE is ready, even the richest people in the world is never ready. So after our second year of marriage, we decided to try to build a family of our own. We want a child so bad but we believe that God has a perfect timing. So whenever that is, we are and we will be patiently waiting.

Let's keep praying that it will be as soon as possible. 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻