It was really a stressful week last week. I wasn't able to sleep well at night. Oh crap. My eyebugs darken, my eyeballs are sunken. Sure do have my stress relievers but i guess it just ain't enough. Remember that one of my stress- reliever is FOOD which i can't have much since i am on a diet and it totally stress me out more. I can't just break the chain of the diet because I'm stress right?!? It's totally upsetting.
Last 2 weeks were really stressful. My girlfriend bought me a dvd of the second series of 90210 (which i loved already, it kept me missed highschool!). I started watching it on the first day of my off last week, January 25. It was also the first day of my diet. Aside from facebooking and surfing the net, i wasn't able to do a productive thing that day, i just found myself lying in my bed watching the series i was totally hooked with.. Mimicking their lines and how they said it, Imagining their drama to mine and i just didn't realize that it was already 1 am and i need to go to the hospital in AM cause we will be attending a seminar at Sta. Barbara Pangasinan. I wasn't sleepy yet, but what i know is that i can't be absent for tomorrow's event.
at around 4:30 AM of January 26, i stood up to go to the bathroom and pee. I went back to my bed, checked my watch and seen the time. i alarmed my phone to ring at 5:45 AM so i can have like 75 minutes to sleep. I close my eyes, but i wasn't sleeping at all.. I started Imagining everything and i felt like I'm just waiting for my alarm to ring..
"Please Don't Stop The Music. Please Don't stop, Please Don't Stop The Music" my alarm goes. I stood up and felt very very awake. The Seminar will start at 8 AM so i got to be there before 7:30, I went at 7 AM. We arrived at the Seminar at 8AM. It was a straight, didactic, seminar and it ended up at 5:30 pm. It was a long sitting-down for me. and i am so excited to go home. Arriving at Urdaneta, My friend ask where am I, and said just got home. He said gotta pick you up we're going somewhere. I said "OK". I was tired really but i can't say No to this friend of mine. So he went to pick me, i asked him "San tayo punta tol, baka papatulong ka sakin ngayon, pagod talaga ako". He wasn't answering. I was surprise what i just saw.
"what the. Another Seminar. Again??? you serious??" It was like an orientation for people who wants to have some business or part-time work by selling make-ups, Herbal meds, and body care. I was so fed up of sitting down, but what am I going to do, I went there, meaning i wanna listen. It was finished at 9:00 PM. (and i think i may like to have that business). I went home and watched the series again but i need to go to work early in AM, so i stopped the player, checked my phone, and WTF, 1:30 AM. haist
4AM again, i woke up, and just waiting for the alarm.No chance of having a goodnight sleep. Went to the hospital 6:45 AM. I have 26 patients, My assistant was a new contractual nurse, i have one senior volunteer, and one new volunteer who's kinda pissing me off for the way she speaks to me. I've got a 3 cancer patients, 2 almost going, and i have 2 major operations, and 1 Post-OP to take care at the recovery room. Wasn't it great???
I went home and i saw my nieces with very dirty clothes, so after caring for other patients at the hospital, it was time to take care of the kids. I did the laundry and I was finished at 9PM. My Dad went home drunk. I started yelling at him cause he is diabetic and that the medicines were purchased thru my money, cause no one will. He is so hard headed and i wished to be in work that time. It was totally absurd. I'm tired.
Next day, January 27, I am for night duty so i thought i could sleep all day. I was wrong, cause at 5:00 AM i was awaken by a bad dream, and i literally watched the sun rise through my window. I get up cause there's really no chance of sleeping. I cooked breakfast and accompanied my niece to her school. My girlfriend came for a visit.. so indeed, We were making "kulitans" as we always do which was really exhausting. Did it add to my stress? No. She's my comfort blanket.. I went back to fetch my niece at 2Pm so could you just imagine how the sun is bursting it's power. whew totally stressing. and went to the hospital at 11PM to work. WORK. it was great that i took some naps in between but it couldn't make me better, I need a break.
Surprisingly i have a great sleep from 9AM to 2 PM on January 29. It was my off. When i was about to take a bath, i found out there were no soap, no shampoo. OMG. It's grocery time. I went to the grocery and shop a little bit. I was totally freaking out and kept worrying myself, why am i very very stressed this week?? i need to call my friends, they could help me. I called my friends and went to my dearest friend's crib and have had a great night talking while having some beers on our hand. but still needs to go to work in AM so we cut it off at 12MN.
Drinking that night helped me to have
AT LEAST some sleep cause when my phone is alarming, i just thought of throwing it outside through my window.
BITIN NA BITIN. Freakin' straining. worked from 7 AM- 3PM. But the good thing this day, It was
PAYDAY. yahoo!! so after duty, my girlfriend and I went to the mall to buy stuffs, eat stuffs. It was perfectly awesome but entirely drained. We went home at 9PM and needs to sleep for we will have a staff meeting at 8AM.. I can't sleep so i decided to finish the 3rd season of the series, it ended 1:30, i slept at 2AM and woke at 6AM.
Jan. 31. Meeting started at 8AM, done at 9AM. Many of you i guess will ask why shouldn't i take a nap and take advantage of the time to sleep? Well, let's say I'm the kind of person that even how sleepy i am and tired i am, i can't take a nap for two reasons: 1) the sun is up. and 2) when i took a bath already. after doing some household chores, i surfed the net and at 5:30 AM, i called up my friends to have some drinking night. since again i have a work early in the morning, we cut the party at 12MN.
Feb.1, first day of the month. I came to work with a terrible headache. absolutely screwed. My father went to the hospital and have his unhealing wound at foot checked. He has an increased blood pressure and increased blood sugar. When the doctor gave me the prescription, i bought the meds right away. It was Heavy :( heavy to a person who just started having a good salary. half of it will be going to his med. I talked to him sincerely, to commit to the regimen, to listen to me, cause this wasn't a joke. THIS IS THE MOST STRESSED DAY for ME. Aside from My Father having this loadings of medicine, My sister called from Milan, and told me that She and her husband is breaking-up. It was heart-crashing when i hear her voice, almost- crying-but-didn't. I feel for her.
How did i manage all of these??
Simply
SMILING THROUGH EVERYTHING
I always think that i got the whole problem in the world, that I'm always tired and always stress-out.
all of us, at some points of our lives, say "I'm tired".
We are tired. But we still continue to do the the right thing.
we're still doing the things we are getting tired of because this makes us happy and fulfilled
this makes our personality, this makes our world round.
as we all know it,after all of these something good will happen.
Remember the song "Hakuna Matata". try singing it when you fell stress..
Make No worries for the rest of the days.
so let me tell you something about him. He was an acquaintance when we were high schools. yeah, we hang-out those days its because My friend Ludife was his girl best friend so we haven't really had a time to know each other. When we were in college and He decided to live with our other friends in one apartment, that's when we became close. I hate him when we were in our teenage years. I thought he was a bipolar. (haha) there were times he was very happy and delighted, and then there are times that he is upset, throwing things everywhere, breaking the jalousies. I told myself i will never be having any connections with this guy. But i guess, let's say,the world turned over, as we became as close as we didn't imagine.
Edward, as i always call him, is a dreamer. I remembered when all were picking on him about joining different things like auditioning to Starstruck, different pageants and fashion shows, modeling (where he often brings something home after), i supported him all the way as he supported me in everything I do. He was sensitive about every one's
then there was Melinda. Yes. My Best Bud's Long time Girl Friend. Marky's relationship in the past were all mess. No one deserves Mark, until Melinda came. I admit that i didn't like her at first, and i know they knew it because i am very vocal and frank about it. Melinda, indeed, proven her love to my best friend and tried befriending us. She exerted effort. and i love her. I love her maybe as much as bud do. She was just perfect for my best friend. I may have heard bad, evil things about her, about the past that is still haunting everyone, but who cares about it anyways? My best bud didn't, so what's the point? At times we still have tampuhans, the best part is, we always compromise, cause she is a friend now, not just mark's GF.
