For the last month i have been stressed for so many reasons -familial drama, working loads and burdens, and some mild arguments where in the first place would've never happen if i didn't start. but through this things, I can say that i see life differently, i see these experience as a retreat on how to handle things i could've just suck it down to my throat, but still being preserved and modest.
Some people really might pissed you off but it is up to you on how you handle this things. Not all people will like you, Not every people will help you go up, Some people will do whatever it takes to take you down, but if you stood up and believe in yourself, You can look at them and tell them "hey, whatever you say, i still made it". i learned this just recenlty, but i remembered learning this from years now. I may have forgotten this lesson since all of my life i was being drag down. This time, i will always keep this lesson, that we are the captain of the ships and whatever waves and disasters come along our way, it is our prerogative to do whatever is best for the ship, not what is the best for us.
according to the world renowned fashion photographer,now turned an anecdotal writer, Nigel Barker, "beauty is far-off from what meets the eye". I second demotion. Beauty doesn't only mean having a fair skin and having a good facial features, but it is what is inside of us. The reason why i was stating this is that, i don't have a beautiful physical features, but i am beautiful, fiercely real inside that it hurts me so bad that people is judging me for doing things i didnt do just because i was stereotyped. That people can blame me for anything just because i am capable of doing that. I can, but i wont.
I was molded well by the love given by my family. My family aint perfect, who does? but whatever life had given my family, was an opportunity for us to grow as a better person and a better human being. the reason why i held up all the things i could do to fight back. i kept quiet, cause i was raised in a family, not very descent, but preserved, mid-sophisticated, and non-violent. i am a registered nurse making me a professional so i should handle things in a professional ways. My family also taught me how to value friendship. And as long as i can remember, every one person i exchange with thoughts and experience is my friend.
I never looked down to any people because i know how it feels like to become a minority, like people dont actually see you, instead i inspire them to strive harder and work harder so that they can achieve whatever they want in life. today, as of this moment, i have great family, True friends, a perfect job i dreamed of, there are no reasons for me to ridicule, there are no reasons for me to get envy. i was never envious about anything in life, but if given the chance of switching life with, i will choose someone who's powerful and superior like Ferdinand Marcos.
I have heard many words against me, some torturing, and some are old school. I never break down cause i was almost complete, I have my girlfriend who the same way became calm but strong with me, My Real life friends who knows me and loved me even from my worst, my workplace friends who stood up with me and stayed with me when i thought everyone believes i have an attitude.I came in to a realization that anyperson can hurt you so bad, be it your bestfriend, your girldfriend, your friend since childhood. but the most heart crashing was being misunderstood and judged abruptly. Many people looked at me differently after this dillema but thanks to those who still believes in me that this is not the "kind of me"
That experience taught me that if there's no one else, look inside yourself. I still believe that whatever they've said to hurt me wasn't their primary intention. with all humilty, I never said anything negative to screw people's lives. Indeed, i criticize, and evaluates, sometimes disparages.. but that's just it. Nothing more to affect any decisions made.
I am still the same person you thought to be. A friend...
